This post is going to get real. Everyone knows the same old story; I don’t have children *yet* and I am plus-size. Something I am working so hard on sharing my love for others. Body Positivity is a NECESSARY field. I am here to spread it. I do my best to be brutally honest when I post on social media.
I am one of those girls who look at images and think of how they always look so good, even in mom pics.
As you know I am trying to lose some weight. I had some health issues in previous years and as always doctors blame your weight. Even though I almost lost 50lbs it’s never enough the BMI has to be perfect and to put me in a standard. Just because we all fit into boxes, right?
Well on Thursday morning I thought I would weigh myself. For the past 3 months it has been hovering between 309lbs and 305lbs every day it goes up and down. Now I do a workout with my sister every day for about 10-15 minutes. I totally understand I am not going out and being active the way I would have been.
But that morning seeing 307 again I was so MAD! I have given up my evening snacks, I only have 1 sandwich, 1 granola bar for breakfast (or oatmeal) only one plate of dinner. I have been working so hard on limiting the food that isn’t healthy or important for me to eat.
It’s really hard! I just lost it that morning, I got angry that it wasn’t coming off, so I was okay with eating a bit more. I told myself today I would cheat and tomorrow I would remember my goals.
I then moved my thoughts to my moms out there who had trouble with their weight during pregnancy and postpartum.
We are told throughout pregnancy how much weight you should gain during the period especially if you are heavier set and you weigh more.
If your BMI is 30 or greater…. (for example, if I was expecting right now, I am like 48 in the BMI I think, the last time I checked) you should only gain 11-20 lbs. Well if the normal weight you should gain 25-35 lbs. Now I may be totally in my own world. But does it seem like when you eat something it’s like it sticks to you and you just can’t shake it? I can almost bet that if you have a higher BMI you went over the recommended or came pretty close to it.
Then your HCP would proceed to belittle you for that happening. Weight gain in my position or weight problems has been my entire life’s journey. So, I can imagine if you are anything like me the problems with weight during pregnancy isn’t fun.
Yes, its recommended to only gain that much weight. SO many people don’t, either less then or above the recommended. Which is okay, I know its hard and maybe you’re a perfectionist like I am said to be. But its okay, weight gain is a real thing and especially if you were careful with your weight before you probably have your concerns.
If you want to whine about the number going up, I’m your gal as I can so relate and I ain’t even pregnant.
